“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” Proverbs 16:9
December 13th brought us to a breaking point. Danielle and I had a lengthy discussion that night that ultimately led us both to fully surrendering to whatever the Lord wanted. The one thing we knew for sure is that we couldn’t keep operating in the same way we had been. Emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually, we surrendered to whatever the next step would be and God, in his faithfulness, honored that surrender.
On the morning of December 14th, we chose to walk in obedience and faith. I woke up at my normal time around 5:30 am and was sitting in the chair reading my Bible and praying. I distinctly remember reading 1 Kings 19:19-21. It is the story of when Elijah met and called Elisha to follow him. In short Elisha sacrificed and cooked his provision (12 teams of oxen) and fed the community. In obedience and faith, he followed the Lord by going with Elijah. This was the beginning of Elisha walking in his calling as a prophet, but it came at the cost of letting the past go. I remember as I was reading and processing the passage, a very strong impression came across me that it was time to resign, and I needed to do it that very day. Danielle woke up and sat down on the couch next to me and before I was able to tell her what I thought we needed to do, she looked at me and said, “today is the day you need to resign.” My mind was instantly flooded with amazement, fear, faith, excitement, and a host of other feelings. Danielle and I made a commitment to each other at the beginning of our marriage to walk in unity and not take major steps without independent confirmation and this was it…
That was the beginning of a new season for our family. I went to work that morning, drafted an email, texted Danielle several times to make sure we were really doing this, and resigned from my job. I resigned without another job, without Danielle and I being able to execute on our financial plans that we had put in motion for the next 12-14 months. We had been in this place before we moved to Texas. It’s a scary place, honestly. But God had come through for us before, and as we were then, we were again confident that this was the direction he wanted us to take. I truly believe this was the Holy Spirit saying, “Test me. Test my faithfulness and see me open the floodgates of blessing,” (Malachi 3:10). I believe the Lord was asking us to bring him our best and most valuable things to his throne…it started with our house and ended with my job. We often interpret this as a 10% of our income, but this time the Lord wanted EVERYTHING!
It was a large step faith, but in all honesty, that is where I am most comfortable. My challenge comes in when our steps of faith are not understood by those around me, but that is often what faith is. Faith is walking the path our Father has for us, and it doesn’t always make sense from a worldly perspective, but it teaches us to be secure in him and not the opinions of others. It also brings significant battles, great lessons, and amazing blessings…some of which we will never understand while we are on this side of Heaven.
Blessings…stay tuned for post #3 coming soon,