When Danielle and I were in the middle of praying through what the Lord had for our family in this season we felt like we had two options: stay where we were and have a fruitful ministry or take the leap of faith and watch him amaze us through his goodness. Believe it or not this was not an easy decision, but ultimately we chose to jump off the cliff and fully trust him. Once we jumped, God went to work on my heart and mind like I had never experienced before… and it has been painfully revealing.
I have discovered, as I alluded to in my last post, I have an issue with trying to control the process once I feel a transition.
My tendency, once I feel transition, is to quickly go to work on figuring out what is going on. I love the beginnings of transition, but once I know transition is on the horizon I constantly seek out a plan that will restore everything back to a previously comfortable place.
But through the discovery of this weakness of mine, I have also gained a greater understanding of God’s grace. When I have made mistakes and went into “plan and control” mode, God has come along and blessed us in the midst of it. Perfect example. June of 2012, our family came into a season of transition. I was emotionally tired and instead of taking the time to pray through things I simply planned out a path that would restore our family to a comfortable place. I made some calls, we moved back to Michigan and we were back to a comfortable place for our family.
In the period of time that followed our move back to Michigan, God blessed us with a beautiful house, a great job, an amazing church, and we were surrounded by people who loved us and encouraged us. He brought us back into an amazing church family (Daybreak) where we able to serve the church and an incredible running team (Hope Water International). Through those experiences we built lifelong relationships with people who have stretched us and challenged us as individuals and as a family. It has been a season of blessings, but make no mistake it has been a season of trial, error, and learning. Out of my weaknesses he has brought blessing… It is only by God’s grace this is possible.
And now… He has brought us full circle back to this point of decision. We are committed; we are moving forward; and I am not completely sure what is in store for our family. But I know one thing, it is going to be good. How is it going to be good? I have no idea and I really do not care, because we are simply doing our best to follow Him. “And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:19)