Whoever says they love change and are not willing to admit there are struggles and challenges along the way are either lying or incredibly selfish. Transition and change is difficult on all parties involved. We grow fond of the things we are surrounded with, whether it is a house, our neighborhood, or really close friends and family. I found myself asking the question this afternoon, “Lord, I am not sure surrendering our family to your will is worth it?” I actually contemplated what disobedience would look like for me, if it meant my family could continue in the life and relationships they currently have…but then I remember His grace and its all consuming effects.
Danielle and I both went to pickup the girls from their last day of school late this morning. We picked up our oldest daughter to the sounds of middle schoolers running out screaming in joy that school was over for the summer. The first question out of my daughter’s mouth was, can we change a specific detail of her birthday party so more of her friends could come. Our obvious answer, was absolutely. She has built incredible relationships and I want to do nothing more than give her the time she needs with her friends before the big move.
Onto picking up our youngest daughter; the one who does not show visible emotion very often. I pull into the pick-up lane and see her and two friends sitting on the ground together. She see us and stands up. Her two friends stand up and all three hug each other; all I see is three sad faces on girls who are growing up too fast. They hug for what seems to be minutes, while my daughter looks at me with that all too familiar uncomfortable “I am the center of attention” look on her face. At the same time, she is fighting tears…and I can’t. I realize what is going on, I realize we are taking her away from two friends she loves dearly, I realize this is the cost of following Christ at times. That may sound trivial, but to an 8-year-old, there is nothing trivial about this situation.
There is always a price to be had when you do your best to follow the path God has for you. Is there blessings along the way, yes? Is there pain and discomfort along the way, more than you will realize in the excitement of a new adventure? God, pour out your grace, wisdom, and understanding on our girls; show them your path is good and just, and that you are always with us when we follow you. Just as you were with and blessed Joseph after he was sold to the Ishmaelite’s and eventually to Pharaoh; bless and walk with our girls on this journey.
Is it worth the cost, YES? Jesus freely offers water of life to those who thirst. We must understand when we take Him up on His free offer, we are no longer our own. We have been bought with a price. There is no such thing as superficially following Christ, to only turn back when things get difficult…it is a life of surrender and trust…
Love, Blessings, and all your prayers are accepted:)